Everyday, I wake up and I am a hero. I am a hero in just making toast with peanut butter. I am a hero in that I can figure out how to find and work the tv remote on demand. I am a hero because I can create FUN out of nothing. The rewards are endless – I get multitudes of kisses all day long, and better still, my kisses have become magical, they now have healing powers over a variety of ailments and emotional hurts. I get to take naps and I get to play in snow banks. I love to cook and I get to do it all day – even though I usually only have one customer who’ll eat my meals (Chris) -it’s still fun practising for the day that my home is filled with giant teenage boys who are never full (this I’m told from my mentors – mothers with grown sons).
I get to show my boys the world – and they are excited over “big hills”, train tracks and the lake. We take frequent trips with our imaginations too. Yesterday, at bedtime, I was Queen of a faraway kingdom with my two handsome prinnces (no mommy, I’m the brave knight – corrected Lucas), and Chris was the big King. I’ve never had a more captive audience to all my random comments, and they usually come back to me – “oh gosh”, “crap!”, and “give me a break”…umhmmm
To be sure, I’m faced with daily challenges, but these challenges are not just external, they are 100% internal too – my heart is examined and exposed all the time. My spiritual and psychological research is immediately implemented and therefore my growth is exponentially guaranteed – and there is no hiding – I cannot blame my children for my failures, rather I accept them and lean on the Lord to strengthen me, to bring me to peace again, to be my joy in the midst of adversity and HE IS. I don’t know what I did before this that I thought was so important, having kids has brought me right into the middle of LIFE – the simplist things are the most enjoyable things.
Hugs, blankets, baths, coffee, a cookie (or 10), a casual phone call, a walk, singing a song, playing in dirt, a picture book, a flower, love letters, sitting in a sunbeam, a purring cat, babies, smiles, sleeping children, candlelight, “I love you’s”, and enjoying the four seasons up close and personal. I hope I never grow up and lose sight of how grand my life is.