Do you have a private cemetery where you bury your dreams. The ones that have been broken, shattered or destroyed? What about the stolen dreams…the ones you can’t bury?…do you carry around the shadow of the memory of them like me? Have you ever wondered what happened to them, how it happened?
I have my share of dreams that have died…dreams that will never be…but I carry around the traces of many “stolen” dreams. Dreams that are not quite dead, but I can’t really “see” them anymore either…
Sometimes I think it would be so much easier to imagine that it’s some outside force, some monster that swoops into my life and steals away my dreams. It would be easier than admitting the truth…
That sometimes… I throw them away, that I let them go into the wind because of fear.
It’d be easier to call fear a dragon, because then I’d be able to say it’s out of my control. That I have no part to play in the story, other than that of the victim.
But often that is just not the case.
More often than not, I am not the victim.
Sometimes, I am the dragon.
Sometimes I kill my own dreams.
With my fear, with my words, with indecision, with comparison, with “reason”, with passivity…
Yes, I have killed some of my own dreams…because I thought they weren’t worthy.
Because I thought I wasn’t worthy.
Because I thought I didn’t have what it took.
I thought didn’t deserve them to come true.
and here’s the truth.
I don’t deserve them… not in myself. I’m a dead man, dead to sin, I deserve nothing good…
Grace made a way…I didn’t stay dead… in Emily Freeman’s book ~ A Million Little Ways she says it like this…
“I can dare to move into the world as the person I fully am, because I am forgiven, empowered and united with Christ in His death and resurrection. Discovering what makes you come alive (your dreams) isn’t the goal of life, it is evidence of life.” Emily P Freeman~A Million Little Ways (emphasis mine)
So my dreams, they actually are His dreams.His purpose for me. Things He prepared for me from before time began…
When I kill or throw those dreams away…I truly am the dragon…walking about devouring the gifts of God. So, I must remember to walk in the light…because I am a child of the light. Not a dragon, not a child of darkness, not a dream stealer or killer.
When we embrace our true design, we experience little tastes of the resurrection, of Jesus coming alive in us, of us coming alive within ourselves… Mourning precedes morning, death comes before the dream… Emily P Freeman
I am made in the image of God, an image bearer…born to reflect His Light, His visionary, creative, image…in love.
Here’s some good news. Dreams are born in light…and they have a way of coming back to life.
Like a flame that flares up in the ashes of the fire pit when the wood is all gone.All they need is to be stirred up a bit and add a little bit more dry wood…and a breath from heaven.
…and just like that, dreams can take on a new life, and burn warmth and vitality into our cold darkness.
And the light shines in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not. … That light shines in the darkness, yet the darkness did not overcome it.
That dream, that spark, that life inside of us, does not originate with us. It is from outside of us, and yet is within us, from before time.
It is drawn from that same source that birthed all of creation.
One spark can dispel the darkness.
One spark can destroy the dragons.
The dragon that prowls around us, and the one that tries to rise up within us…and we become dragon slayers by living out our dreams.
The Light has come…and the darkness is overcome.